That was a common phrase in our childhood home. “Go and get a switch, and if you don’t get a good one? I WILL” which of course meant half the tree, or it seemed that way. Of course the reason was because she couldn’t find her check…so we must have taken it, or misplaced it. It was never her doing, or her fault. and there were never any apologies, she always said it was for something we did she didn’t know about…or something we would eventually do, so no apologies needed. We all got the switch, we all had welts, some of which bled. I always tried to take the brunt of the anger, I was older (12 ish) and felt I could take it better. One of us was the guilty one, but none of us would confess, or rat out the others, so we all got the punishment. Of course later, she would find the check in her purse in a side pocket. Living with Bi-polar people? not so easy. Raising a Bi Polar parent? No Contest.
Memories from past childhood events revisit my memory bank, and although they are not things I enjoy remembering, they are strong memories, and thus assert themselves. My mother refused to accept that she was Bi polar, and therefore refused any medication. This didn’t bode well for three children who were called mistakes. They Did, however, do the best they could to remain whole…….. Its OK, Winter is almost over now…….
I am in the throes of S.A.D. , Winter depression is still a mystery to scientists who study it. Many things, including brain chemicals, ions in the air, and genetics seem to be involved. But researchers agree that people who suffer from winter depression — also known as “seasonal affective disorder,” a term that produces the cute acronym SAD — have one thing in common. They’re particularly sensitive to light, or the lack of it.( SAD from info on WEB MD)