Blog 14 of 30 In The Blog Along With Effy Wild!
I am guilty. I look for things to buy…some of them are digital….some of them are kindle books….some of them are I-Pad Apps…..some of them are real Art supplies…..But nothing is enough….its never enough…..I don’t know why.
It’s not like I am an Unhappy person, I have a Wonderful supportive husband, I don’t have to work if I don’t want to, I don’t have my kids at home anymore, but I have my cherished pets, I just don’t know why I feel the need to acquire more things… I am so blessed to have what I DO have….and yet….its not enough.
I know I am trying to fill some void, but I don’t know where the void came from….Is it from NOT having kids around anymore? I don’t think so because I think I did the same thing back then….I just couldn’t buy as much.
I also noticed that a lot of my friends and family are doing the same thing….Not “everyone”, but many. What is it that we are looking for? What will it really take to make us feel full or whole? Or will we always have that need? that drive to get Just ONE more… Sometimes it even makes me tired, and/or overwhelmed. I think because I don’t know WHAT it is I am looking for. I think I know, And then after I buy “said” thing? I get this disappointed or let down feeling….Like when you think you found a rare coin and it turns out to be a common penny.
I Hope one day I find it….I feel some days as if I have….and then the “need” feeling comes back again…I’m sure its out there somewhere…Or maybe Its in ME somewhere?