I fell short of the 30 posts in 30 days mark, but I’m not down on myself because of it…I am extremely Proud that I show up as often as I do! I never would have In a Previous chapter! Yes, I truly believe our lives are made up of chapters, some folks get stuck reading the same chapter too many times, yeah? Even I have done that a few times in my life thus far.
Lets see….Saturday! I got my hair changed (professionally) which I haven’t done since my Cousin Becky passed away. My hair…has been VERY blonde all my life, from Platinum as a child to well…Very Blonde…But recently? I think It was starting to go grey? So I deemed it time for a change! The first photo…was in 2011/12 ish…..The next two? were Yesterday….
I was in shock at first….I have NEVER Seen my hair so dark…but its growing on me….I know we all have to get older…I have added way too much weight….which is mostly due to illness (little or no b 12, Hypothyroid, Steroids from COPD) I have no appetite, and have to be reminded sometimes to eat….which is shocking to me, for as a child/young adult? I thought people were heavy from only over eating…. Yes…I judged. I found fault. I was Literally Ignorant.
1.lacking in knowledge or training; unlearned: an ignorant woman.
2.lacking knowledge or information as to a particular subject or fact: ignorant of quantum physics.
4.due to or showing lack of knowledge or training: an ignorant statement.
So That Brings me to my Title.
I recently had an Ultrasound on my thyroid, it is getting horribly uncomfortable in my neck, as if someone is constantly choking me. As I drove away from the Ultrasound…I wondered if I might have Cancer…or maybe they just need to remove the thyroid? ANY time you have tests done and you feel horrid…so may untamed thoughts run rampant through your brain…..But…Here is the thought that really shocked me the most….I don’t think having cancer? would be so bad. WAIT…….before you get all freaked out? I KNOW I am pretty Ill, WITHOUT even having the big C word…..and all I keep thinking? is will THIS be me?
I don’t want to read this chapter….I know its not really my choice….but This is so horrid….so sad….I also don’t want to be at home having my loved ones wipe my bum…..how horrid for them? I think that the Creator, Call the force whatever you may, can protect you from all sorts of things…..even the photo above…..So is dying earlier than “nursing home age or health” Horrid? I don’t think it would be. As Sad as I would be to leave all my family and friends? I would leave knowing they didn’t despise me, or actually be grateful that I am finally gone…. (you know what I mean). So IF I end up with Cancer or some other Dread Health Issue that I know I cant really win? I will go without a fight, no miracle cures, no Chemo, None of that Hooky for me. I will accept it as a blessing from a force that knows me better than I know myself.
In other news! I had an Open House to attend on Saturday as well! It was to enlighten anyone who might be interested in taking classes on wearing your watercolor! It was only for 3 hours, and I enjoyed it. for attending we got an extra 30% off our entire purchase if we bought anything….WOOP! some stuff was already 70% off! I Went shopping!! I got some binders/smash like for 70 cents normally $9.00 and I got Stamps? Normally $15? they were half off = 7.50 – 30% put them right around $4.
AFTER, I went to Hobby Lobby, which is right across the street….and they were also having a sale! Paper Studio and Stampabilities stuff all 50% off! OH…..it was a good shopping day!
So now its Monday….and here I sit….My hip is a GIANT toothache…..My throat is choking again, I can feel the swelling due to the water retention….I haven’t had a B-12 shot since January as it is currently UN available….I wonder if the Veterinarian has some? And I still feel pretty freakin Happy….My Life? Has been/IS AWESOME!!!!! Have I struggled? HELL YEAH! Have I Cried? YES! Have I Been Angry? YOU BET! But they are all chapters! They are all part of my story!! Guess What? I really AM going to go Sliding in sideways…..saying “THAT was one HELL of a RIDE!!!!!!”
Here’s to The Coming of Tuesday! Hope Your Day Will Bring a Smile or Three!!